I’m still here, I promise

Hey lovelies, I’m back. It’s been a minute, hasn’t it? Missed everyone! Been meaning to post. I ended up with covid for like, a month, so haven’t felt up to posting much of anything except that my voice hurt, my ears were blocked and I couldn’t breathe properly. Yeah, it sucked. Plus couldn’t talk.

I promise I haven’t gone away though. I’ve been wanting to post about some cute moments with my son that have happened recently. He’s autistic too and he tends to notice the little things most people miss. The other day, we were talking about how it’s coming up on Christmas time and he says “No, it’s not Christmas time, there’s no snow.” I mean, he wasn’t wrong… It doesn’t feel quite the same to me either with no snow sad face

He also enjoys pointing out the various infinity symbols I wear. The ones on my shirts, sweaters, jewellery, just anywhere I might be wearing infinities on me. “You got finities on you!” He says excitedly while pointing up to them. What a kitten.

He’s growing up before my eyes and I’m not sure how to feel about it. He’s 4, but sometimes he has the maturity of an 8 year old. I’m proud of him, but I do miss infancy if we’re being honest. Those cute baby noises, that fresh baby smell, wrapping him up in fuzzy blankets and sleep sacks after bottling and rocking him for about an hour in my stim chair, which used to be his room. It was a magical time. My baby has become a boy. I don’t know what to do with myself. He’s gottenso independent. Plus coming out with new sayings ebery day that make me go, where did he get that from?

Last night, as I was giving him his bath, he picked up one of his bath toys and with a mixture of pure disbelief and exasperation, he says “Oh…my…god.” I died laughing as he’s never said that before in his life, it was such a random moment and the way he delivered it. he was just like mom, I’m so over this. Lol what a kid.

Well, it’s off to post this up and listen to some TsO. Their live shows are absolutely magical. Seen them twice now. Would recommend. Goodnight lovelies.